My dad is improving. He is using less of the ventilator’s oxygen and more of his own. This is good.
Today, he woke up from sedation for a bit when the medicine wore off and he tried to tell me something in Morse code by squeezing my hand. I do not remember any Morse code although I did learn it when I was 12. If you ever want to feel like a disappointment, I suggest you put yourself in this exact situation.
Please note that I am aware I am not a disappointment, I just feel like one. It will pass. But first I will go study some Morse code web sites and print out a goddamn cheat sheet, because even though they told us not to talk to him or stimulate him in any way, I WILL NOT be stuck in this situation ever again.